Like right out of a movie

About a year ago I had this dream. It was just after we moved in to our current place. The setting took place out side our courtyard, except one of the buildings was missing and there was this open field  where businesses should be have been. It was dark and gloomy and the clouds were black. We were running out our back door for cover and I couldn't find my daughter or my dog. In the distance, in the open field there were twisters. So many of them, just one after another all heading our way. I felt scared, obviously, but also a feeling of something bigger, like the entire world was under destruction and we just had to bear it out.

I've never had this type of sad, doomsday dream before. It continually haunts me from time to time. When I hear about the natural disasters through out the world and the recent tornadoes, it brings me to this thought. Even when we have the end of the world stories in the news or media. Could I really be feeling like there is a near end in sight?

I wish I never had this dream. I'm kind of being a downer on this one. A weak moment is all.

Being a working Mom sucks

I'm exhausted.

I started a new job about three weeks ago. A full time job, something I haven't done in two years. Something I haven't done while being a mother. I didn't want to go back to work, it was more a matter of finances and a great opportunity. I don't like it though, being a full time working mom. I hate missing out on the pajama mornings and spending the day with my little one.

Today was Bella's first day without tears going to daycare. Daycare makes me uneasy. My Mom picked her up today, (I'm required to stay late two nights a week at my job) and she told me a lovely story about how she couldn't get into the class room because two little boys had a table propped against it and they were standing on it. When she knocked on the door, one of the little boys jumped down and began pushing the table out of the way, while the other boy was still standing on the table! I asked her if the teacher was in the room and she was. Does this seem unsafe to anyone that two year olds are allowed to do this?

1)Children shouldn't be allowed to stand on tables


2)They shouldn't be standing on tables while blocking the door


3)They shouldn't be pushing tables around while children are standing on them

I've got a headache and a million thoughts bouncing around in my head. I feel nauseous.

Mother's day Ideas

I was searching one of my favorite wesites Disney Family (you should definitely sign up and send me your email address so I can invite you to be my friend!) when I can across the Mother's Day section!!

10 Memorable Ways to Celebrate Mother's Day (this one should be passed along to the husbands!

I like this one, Minnie's Royal Tiara for the Mom's!

You can make a World's Greatest Grandmother Certificate!

Couponing: Week 3

Week 3

So this past week was a big step in couponing. I was able to get many items for FREE!! I've also learned an overwehlming and emotional thing about this whole quest. I don't appreciate those extreme couponers that clear the entire shelf of one item. Really, do you honestly need 50 bottles of body wash? And even those of you who donate to charity, what percentage of your stock pile do you honestly donate? Someone like me, who would like to participate in all the free goodies that couponing has to offer, can't because I didn't get there the very first day of the sale, at the very opening of the store. I have expenses too, and I would like to save too. Let's not be so greedy, Okay....

I've also realized what an addiction couponing can be. It's a crazy sensation knowing that several items in my cart I won't have to pay for, or I even make money off of them! What I have learned through all this chaos is stay organized and double check the fine print. Make sure the coupon is for the product in your cart and that it has not expired. Make sure you are within all the guildlines of coupon and store policy. You wouldn't want to be surprised at the check out aisle when your bill is higher then anticipated.

Things I got for free this week...

2 womens Nivea body wash

2 Mens Nivea Body wash

2 Gilette mens body wash

2 Schick shave gels

2 air wick compack starter kits

Almost free

Pro fusion razor (a value of over $10.00!) I paid $0.89!

Croque Monsieur

This is so delicious. I got this recipe for Ina Garten! She is one of my favorite chefs. I changed the recipe a bit to fit what I had in my kitchen. I also changed the sauce a bit, I felt it wasn't thickening enough.

This is a great brunch recipe and so easy to make! A french recipe!

Ingredients

• 2 tablespoons unsalted butter
• 2 tablespoons all-purpose flour
• 1 cup hot milk
• 1 teaspoon sea salt
• 1/2 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper
• pinch of nutmeg
• 12 ounces mozzarella, grated (5 1/2 cups)
• 16 slices white sandwich bread, crusts removed
• Spicy brown mustard
• 8 ounces baked Virginia ham, sandwich sliced at your deli.

Directions

Preheat the oven to 400 degrees F.

Melt the butter over low heat in a small Saucepan and add the flour all at once, stirring with a wooden spoon for 2 minutes. Slowly pour the hot milk into the butter–flour mixture and cook, whisking constantly, until the sauce is thickened. Off the heat add the salt, pepper, nutmeg, 1 cup of the Mozzarella and set aside.

Toast the bread, bake on a baking sheet 5 minutes. Turn each slice and bake for another 2 minutes, until toasted.

Lightly brush half the toasted breads with mustard, add two slices of ham to each, and sprinkle with half the remaining Mozzarella. Top with another piece of toasted bread. Slather the tops with the cheesesauce, sprinkle with the remaining Mozzarella, and bake the sandwiches for 5 minutes. Turn on the broiler and broil for 3 to 5 minutes, or until the topping is bubbly and lightly browned. Serve hot.

I'm going to be a working Mom

At first, I thought I was just terrified to go back to work. I got a sick feeling in my gut the days following the official offer letter. It has been two years since I worked full time in a serious career. I feared, I'd lack the drive and motivation I once had. I questioned my decision over and over and only began to doubt more when we went looking at daycares.

"Is this the right decision?" I don't know. I'm tired of worrying about money and our old cars and all the problems. I had hoped I could stay at home until all of our child(and the future children, that haven't even been born yet) was in school, but it doesn't look that way and I am disappointed.

When it comes down to it, that is what has given me the uneasy nerves. I almost feel as if I failed at "our" plan.

The funny thing is, this job opportunity is amazing and I didn't even dream of these benefits or salary they have offered me. I have been extremely lucky and blessed with this great new circumstance but my own selfishness has gotten in the way.

I'm really excited now, to start my new job on Monday! I've got my motivation back and I look forward to all the things I will be able to provide for my family. Weekends off are great too and we will have some fun quality time together.  Now we will be able to take our trip, this coming holiday season, to visit family in Arizona!